Without You

With you there were no nightmares, no hard times, no pain.

It's because you walked away from me that I feel it all again.

I feel the tears roll down my cheek, the ones you used to dry.

I feel no arms around me, when I begin to cry.

The love you used to give me, the light you used to bring

It all faded along with the songs you used to sing.

Your smile broke a thousand hearts but set my soul alight

Your eyes, like the ocean in the sun, sparkled day and night.

These memories of us, make it harder to let you go

To hear you speak about this girl, whom you barely even know.

My heart is aching, my body is cold

And I'm wishing and dreaming that I could have you to hold.

If she is what you want then I have to say goodbye

But before you go maybe you could just tell me why.

Why did you end it when we'd only just begun?

Why did you leave me if you think I'm 'so much fun'?

Why did you say you love me then leave without a care?

Why did you even bother with me, do you really think it's fair?

For these questions, you have no answers, no reasons, no because

And now that you’ve gone my world is still, I’m permanently on pause.

Mask and Disguises.

I have a disguise to keep me hidden
And a mask so I go unnoticed
But every now and then I take them off
And run free as myself.
I get skirts and dresses
When all I want is trousers
I squirm with discomfort as a crawl into the skirts
I wriggle and fidget and can’t sit still
In these clothes that cling to me.

My life is based on lies
As they cannot see me.
They look at me and see another
I look in the mirror and see the same.
I know who I am but they do not.

They call me Sarah but that’s not me
My name is David...so why don’t they see?

Tricked

Her hair brushes her warm face
As she turns to smile at me
Eyes glittering and with a spring in her step
She makes her way over
The sun guides her across the room
As I return her smile I feel her arms around me
And I melt
As she pulls away I feel a sharp pain
I put my hand to my back
It returns red and dripping
She throws her head back and cackles
Eyes ablaze
And her nails like daggers
I'm trapped in a flaming circle

Tricked once more by a devil in
disguise...